June 6, 2005

I am feeling great! I am heading back to normal! I slipped past the last round with manageable side effects. Had a couple days on the couch because of body aches from the rebounding red blood cells. Other than that not too bad. My mom stayed with us a few days after my treatment. It was very nice to have her around to keep me company.
I had a few days a week or so ago just dealing with the emotional side of chemo. You spend so much of your energy dealing with just healing, that you push aside many emotions. They all came around last week. I gave over to God a lot of my anger toward all of this. I am praying that my anger will not turn to bitterness, and that I will not longer see chemo as "a big, black hole" in my life, because there is light in all of this.
I had a great time at the Relay for Life this past weekend. I got to walk with some BC survivor friends in the opening survivor's walk. It was a very strange, humbling feeling being the one on the track, instead of the one in the stands clapping for others. Interesting where God puts you! All of the survivors got a goody bag and a great catered dinner. Thanks to the Evans & Cierpot families and Elaine for all of their hard work putting our team together and decorating our AWESOME tent.
Good news! I think my hair is starting to come back! It's very thin and soft, but it is there! :)
Here is an article someone gave me at work I wanted to share with you. Had hold back some tears in some places and had to keep from laughing in others. All in all, it hits the head on the nail. I have learned how to show my inner cleavage! :) AB http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7103349/site/newsweek/